During the first days and weeks of No Contact, I vacillated between hoping my Malignant Narcissist husband would drop dead, and yearning to see him again.
There were times I missed him desperately, though why I couldn’t tell you. He certainly wasn’t worth missing.
Still, I missed being in his arms. And I missed the way we used to laugh together.
Those times were painfully hard to overcome. And I came very close to breaking No Contact on more than one occasion.
I knew I needed a way to keep those thoughts of him from my mind. In truth, the good memories were as false as the mask my husband had worn.
But I didn’t know how to go about it. At that point, I wasn’t in control of my emotions.
I only knew that I couldn’t let my mind trick me into thinking that things hadn’t been that bad!!
Because they had been.
I’ve always been a voracious reader, which was especially true in the first weeks after going No Contact.
One of the books I read was “Psychopath Free,” by Jackson Mackenzie.
There is a passage at the beginning of the book that caused chills when I read it.
The author’s words caused something in my brain to click. An aha moment, if you will. And it was a turning point for me.
The comprehension of the kind of person I’d been married to had been realized.
It hit me like a ton of bricks, but I no longer had any desire to see my husband again.
Finally I had faced the cold reality that my entire marriage had been nothing but a sham.
And that the man I once loved had never existed.
Page 25, “Psychopath Free” by Jackson Mackenzie:
“The psychopath trains you to become the perfect partner.
In a matter of weeks, they take over your entire life, consuming your mind and body with unrivaled pleasure.
Ultimately you are to become their newest source of endless adoration and praise.
But first, you must fall in love.
Then your heart will be open to their every suggestion.
There are three key components to this process: idealization, indirect persuasion, and testing the waters.
The idealization phase in a psychopathic relationship will be like anything you’ve ever experienced.
You will be swept off your feet, lost in a passionate fantasy with someone who excites you on every level: emotionally, spiritually, and sexually.
They will be the first thing on your mind when you wake up in the morning, waiting for their cheerful, funny texts to start your day.
You will quickly find yourself planning a future with them-forgetting about the dull realities of life. None of that matters anymore. They’re the person you want to spend the rest of your life with.
While all of this is going on in your heart, their thoughts are occupied by something else entirely.
Good. It’s working.“
Originally Answered By Serena Prince On Quora.
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